Well, life was going good this week, ive been working alot, habing fun with it, enjoying the hours and the work itself. I worked til about 730 last night, and thought i might have a relaxing day today...i slept til about 10, got out of bed, headed to the loungeroom to read and watch some dvd's. Being a fan of stargate, i have purchased alot of the tv seasons on dvd...i am currently up to the first episode of sg1 season 5, and thought that i might watch a few episodes with my little brother. I kindly asked my sister, brother and dad (the only people home at the time) if they mided, and they said it was fine as they also wanted to watch it. I put in the first disk and headed to the kitchen to make some lunch. I was halfway through making my lunch - 2 small rolls, with semi dried tomato, feta cheese and baby spinach - when the front door opens and toni - my sister - and her boyfriend return home. Now normally im not a fan of toni, and we fight like cat and dog, but this week we have been rather tollerant of one another and have not faught. So when brendan comes in the house, and drops 2 heavy ikea boxes in the middle of the lounge room and says not this shit, i get slightly angry, and dont say a word. I continue making my lunch.
He begins to build the bookcase, being loud and talking to no one in particular. I strain to hear the dvd and then hear him ask samuel to turn the volume down. I contunied to stay quiet, attempting to block out his voice and focus on the dvd. He then starts to make a comentary for the dvd saying stupid things, and generally pissing me off, so i head towards the tv, remove my dvd, and head to my room. I turn and ask them to keep the noise down as i have a headache, shut my door and turn on my laptop to listen to some music.
Less than 5 minutes later, he is using a bloody hammer to build the bookcase, when it is clearly designed to be pushed together not forcefully smashed together...i left the house...
I stay quiet when they watch movies, only asking the name and if i am uninterested i leave the room, i dont force them to watch my movies and dont treat them like crap...so why do they do it to me. There are 2 other rooms in our house where i can watch movies. The first is the rumpus room where brendan sleeps on the weekends and gets pissy whenever we go in there to do stuff because he likes to nap. The third is lisas bedroom - my sister currently living in the uk - however this room was also not an option as toni decided to start dumping her crap in there...and her books are currrently occupying the bed. I hate my family sometimes, and at present continue to silently suffer.
I just wish that others would treat me as i treat them, and stop haveing double standards...
~ Krysten ~
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Whats the point?!?!?!?!
Well, what goes on in my world at the moment?! i am currently sitting on the couch in the rumpus room, waiting for my friends to show up for a movie night...even though they were supposed to be here an hour ago and no one has msged or called to let me know they are no longer coming or that they shall be late. I dont know why i even bother anymore....
We were always the closest of friends, hanign out 24/7, always there when one of us needed help, when there was a problem, or when something good or exciting happened in our lives, we would discuss everything - no matter how private. We were always there...
How did we get here, to a place where we are never there for each other, to a place where showing up late or not at all is at all acceptable, that a 21 year old girl sits on a couch sourounded by movies and food just waiting for that txt of call from a friend, or even for them just to show up when she knows deep inside that no one is coming. Ho is it ever acceptable to forget a friend like that, and for it to be done so effortlessly by all.
I hate that i give them my trust, my faith, my life...i shouldn't be here, on this couch, in this room, waiting for something, anything...i should be out, living life, having fun, not being depressed and alone...so why cant i get up, why cant i brake the cycle?!?!
Do i do this to myself?!?
Do i push people away?!?!
Am i the cuse of this?!?!
How can i change it?!?!
How can i be happy?!?!
Life is a bitch and then you die...
~ Krysten ~
We were always the closest of friends, hanign out 24/7, always there when one of us needed help, when there was a problem, or when something good or exciting happened in our lives, we would discuss everything - no matter how private. We were always there...
How did we get here, to a place where we are never there for each other, to a place where showing up late or not at all is at all acceptable, that a 21 year old girl sits on a couch sourounded by movies and food just waiting for that txt of call from a friend, or even for them just to show up when she knows deep inside that no one is coming. Ho is it ever acceptable to forget a friend like that, and for it to be done so effortlessly by all.
I hate that i give them my trust, my faith, my life...i shouldn't be here, on this couch, in this room, waiting for something, anything...i should be out, living life, having fun, not being depressed and alone...so why cant i get up, why cant i brake the cycle?!?!
Do i do this to myself?!?
Do i push people away?!?!
Am i the cuse of this?!?!
How can i change it?!?!
How can i be happy?!?!
Life is a bitch and then you die...
~ Krysten ~
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Confusion...
When you go out with friends...who drives?!?!
consider the facts:
- one person works every week night, the other works weekends
- one person has a cd player and ipod and must be listening to a good song always, the other doesnt mind the radio
- one person has a car in good condition, the other needs to replace majority of the engine
- one person has airconditioning and winges when its hot, the other has no aircon and thinks the windows work fine
- one person earns alot of money and has shitloads in savings, the othe stuggles to get by
- one person wants to go out all the time and generally instigates outings, the other goes as a tagalong...
so which of these 2 people would you expect to drive?! person 1, or person 2?? its person one right? the person with the car that works, who winges when its hot, who has the music they want, who has a car that runs properly, who has heaps of money and can afford fuel, who actually wants to go out...well when it comes to my friends...your wrong! i am person 2, and generally the one forced into driving. Exscuses i get are, well monique is coming so she can drive if you dont want to - but this person wont let them drive their car so mine is always the one used (monique being a learner driver) - or; i have no fuel - and when this is followed by well neither do i the excuse becomes i havent been able to transfer money - or; i went out last night im to tired - even though i worked the night before and am beyond exhausted - or; the person just decides they wont go, until they convince you that you have to go and then they force you to drive because they didnt want to go in the first place....
I can understand being the driver when i make plans or decide to go somewhere, but when someone calls and says come hang out, be ready in 15...you kind of expect them to be the one driving!!! am i wrong in that assumption?!?! because if i am then please let me know, because as far as i am concerned my kind and giving nature is being grosly taken advantage of and i really dont like it. AT ALL!!!
So, how does one rectify a situation like this...(this isnt a lead on to another part of my discussion, its a genuine question)...
So if you have in tips or suggestions on how i can deal with this, please let me know...
~ Krysten ~
consider the facts:
- one person works every week night, the other works weekends
- one person has a cd player and ipod and must be listening to a good song always, the other doesnt mind the radio
- one person has a car in good condition, the other needs to replace majority of the engine
- one person has airconditioning and winges when its hot, the other has no aircon and thinks the windows work fine
- one person earns alot of money and has shitloads in savings, the othe stuggles to get by
- one person wants to go out all the time and generally instigates outings, the other goes as a tagalong...
so which of these 2 people would you expect to drive?! person 1, or person 2?? its person one right? the person with the car that works, who winges when its hot, who has the music they want, who has a car that runs properly, who has heaps of money and can afford fuel, who actually wants to go out...well when it comes to my friends...your wrong! i am person 2, and generally the one forced into driving. Exscuses i get are, well monique is coming so she can drive if you dont want to - but this person wont let them drive their car so mine is always the one used (monique being a learner driver) - or; i have no fuel - and when this is followed by well neither do i the excuse becomes i havent been able to transfer money - or; i went out last night im to tired - even though i worked the night before and am beyond exhausted - or; the person just decides they wont go, until they convince you that you have to go and then they force you to drive because they didnt want to go in the first place....
I can understand being the driver when i make plans or decide to go somewhere, but when someone calls and says come hang out, be ready in 15...you kind of expect them to be the one driving!!! am i wrong in that assumption?!?! because if i am then please let me know, because as far as i am concerned my kind and giving nature is being grosly taken advantage of and i really dont like it. AT ALL!!!
So, how does one rectify a situation like this...(this isnt a lead on to another part of my discussion, its a genuine question)...
So if you have in tips or suggestions on how i can deal with this, please let me know...
~ Krysten ~
Sunday, April 18, 2010
LAZY!!!
So, How went my weekend?!
I got like zero sleep before getting out of bed at 8am on saturday, only to get ready for work and head to aami...i worked all day, and ended up with the st johns people for about half an hour, coz a nasty ass bug flew in my eye and made it feel like my eye was burning...they were very nice though, and made the pain go away. My eye still feels weird, but thats because apparently its slightly scratched and shall take a week or two to heal...
I finished up wrk around 7, heading home, through a maccas drive through as i was sooo hungry... Got home, changed quickly then headed straight back out to return movies and hang out at nathans...i intended to head home around 10, but ended up staying til about 1130...i headed home and started on breaking dawn - twilight series - and before i knew it it was 1am and i was exhausted...realising this i went straight to sleep...i woke up to my nieces in ym room at about 9am and gave them some new coloring in books...taz got a tinkabell one and jess got a disney princesses one...mine is pooh bear...we coloured for about an hour, then they headed home. I came into my room, layed on my bed, checked my emails, replied to some, turned off my computer, rolled over and the next thing i know its 4 in the afternoon! i was like, oh, i didnt realise i was that tired...hmm
So i spent the arvo reading and chatting with siblings, and then watched the premier episode of the newest doctor who series...i liked it kind of, i preferred david tennant as the doctor though...the new doctor is weird, and i dont likehis bow tie, or the inside of the tardis...but i do like the new compnion, she seams interesting, her name is amelia/amy...
anywho, i appear to be tired again, i dont know why though...so im headed off to bed...
nighty night all
~ Krysten ~
I got like zero sleep before getting out of bed at 8am on saturday, only to get ready for work and head to aami...i worked all day, and ended up with the st johns people for about half an hour, coz a nasty ass bug flew in my eye and made it feel like my eye was burning...they were very nice though, and made the pain go away. My eye still feels weird, but thats because apparently its slightly scratched and shall take a week or two to heal...
I finished up wrk around 7, heading home, through a maccas drive through as i was sooo hungry... Got home, changed quickly then headed straight back out to return movies and hang out at nathans...i intended to head home around 10, but ended up staying til about 1130...i headed home and started on breaking dawn - twilight series - and before i knew it it was 1am and i was exhausted...realising this i went straight to sleep...i woke up to my nieces in ym room at about 9am and gave them some new coloring in books...taz got a tinkabell one and jess got a disney princesses one...mine is pooh bear...we coloured for about an hour, then they headed home. I came into my room, layed on my bed, checked my emails, replied to some, turned off my computer, rolled over and the next thing i know its 4 in the afternoon! i was like, oh, i didnt realise i was that tired...hmm
So i spent the arvo reading and chatting with siblings, and then watched the premier episode of the newest doctor who series...i liked it kind of, i preferred david tennant as the doctor though...the new doctor is weird, and i dont likehis bow tie, or the inside of the tardis...but i do like the new compnion, she seams interesting, her name is amelia/amy...
anywho, i appear to be tired again, i dont know why though...so im headed off to bed...
nighty night all
~ Krysten ~
Friday, April 16, 2010
Life...
So, Life is boring as always...the only difference to normal times being that i have my siblings home all the time at the moment. I am hanging out for monday, so that they can be back at school and no longer bothering me...
I have spent this week doing not much different to the norm. I have gotten into a regular sleeping patter, or i had, and i have been hanging out with my friends. I have been looking out for monique a bit more than i normally do as her dog just died. She spent alot of the week worrying about him, as he spent heaps of time at the vet, having tests and surgery done, and unfortunatly he, oscar, died. They believe he was poisened by a neighbor, which sucks. Mon and her father have gone to melbourne to chill out with family for the weekend. Hopefully things will be a bit easier for them when they get back.
Due to the iceland volcano issues, my sister is curently trapped in an airport somewhere in the UK. She was headed to belfast, but didnt make it due to cancelled flights. She appears to be trapped until saturday...hope all works out well for her...not that she cares if im worried or not, she is pissed at me for something i said to her boyfriend that was majorly missinterpreted. I said that she has trouble with long distance, expressing her feelings and stuff, and she took it as me saying that she isnt interested in being in a long distance realtionship with him. Which is totally insane!!! they are like made for each other. and for him to make her happy, thats something i didnt think would like ever happy, because my sister is kind of hard to please. I spent 20 years trying to make her happy, but no matter what, something always happens to make her hate me. The only time i have really hated her is when she had her 18th birthday. She invited EVERYONE, except me! i spent the night at home, babysitting the youngest siblings...
Im used to being left out though, toni did the same thing, and then gave me a pity invite like a week before her birthday...
This week i decided to head to cash converters, and if you dont know what that is, then googole it maybe?! anywho, i was looking around at cameras, because i really want one and i saw a walkman or diskman, whateva you want to call it. All of a sudden it was the only thing i wanted...i have an ipod, im not completly lame or anything, but i like the idea of having a diskman, so i got it...im loving it...
Anyways, enough of my lame life, im headed off to finish rereading eclipse...
~ Krysten ~
I have spent this week doing not much different to the norm. I have gotten into a regular sleeping patter, or i had, and i have been hanging out with my friends. I have been looking out for monique a bit more than i normally do as her dog just died. She spent alot of the week worrying about him, as he spent heaps of time at the vet, having tests and surgery done, and unfortunatly he, oscar, died. They believe he was poisened by a neighbor, which sucks. Mon and her father have gone to melbourne to chill out with family for the weekend. Hopefully things will be a bit easier for them when they get back.
Due to the iceland volcano issues, my sister is curently trapped in an airport somewhere in the UK. She was headed to belfast, but didnt make it due to cancelled flights. She appears to be trapped until saturday...hope all works out well for her...not that she cares if im worried or not, she is pissed at me for something i said to her boyfriend that was majorly missinterpreted. I said that she has trouble with long distance, expressing her feelings and stuff, and she took it as me saying that she isnt interested in being in a long distance realtionship with him. Which is totally insane!!! they are like made for each other. and for him to make her happy, thats something i didnt think would like ever happy, because my sister is kind of hard to please. I spent 20 years trying to make her happy, but no matter what, something always happens to make her hate me. The only time i have really hated her is when she had her 18th birthday. She invited EVERYONE, except me! i spent the night at home, babysitting the youngest siblings...
Im used to being left out though, toni did the same thing, and then gave me a pity invite like a week before her birthday...
This week i decided to head to cash converters, and if you dont know what that is, then googole it maybe?! anywho, i was looking around at cameras, because i really want one and i saw a walkman or diskman, whateva you want to call it. All of a sudden it was the only thing i wanted...i have an ipod, im not completly lame or anything, but i like the idea of having a diskman, so i got it...im loving it...
Anyways, enough of my lame life, im headed off to finish rereading eclipse...
~ Krysten ~
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Who am I?!?!
Hi,
My name is Krysten and i am a 21 year old, South Australian girl, who goes pretty much unnoticed.
I have 6 siblings( one older sister, 3 younger sisters and 2 younger brothers) in addition to my parents and 3 lovely nieces. I live with the younger 5 of my siblings and my parents in a 6 bedroom house, south of adelaide.
I am this year, for the first time since i was 5 years old, not a student! I currently have 2 jobs, both in catering/functions. I work as a food and beverage attendant at various locations across adelaide. I love working in hospitality, meeting new people, working everywhere, and doing a variety of jobs (functions and stuff).
Idealy i hope to end up opening my own restaurant, which i know is a long way off, but one day shall *fingers crossed* become a reality.
I cook, i craft, i read, i write. I am kind of weird...
I am easily unnoticed, and somewhat invisible to those around me...
Tune in to my posts to find out what goes on in my boringly messed up world...
WELCOME TO MY WORLD!!!...
~ Krysten ~
My name is Krysten and i am a 21 year old, South Australian girl, who goes pretty much unnoticed.
I have 6 siblings( one older sister, 3 younger sisters and 2 younger brothers) in addition to my parents and 3 lovely nieces. I live with the younger 5 of my siblings and my parents in a 6 bedroom house, south of adelaide.
I am this year, for the first time since i was 5 years old, not a student! I currently have 2 jobs, both in catering/functions. I work as a food and beverage attendant at various locations across adelaide. I love working in hospitality, meeting new people, working everywhere, and doing a variety of jobs (functions and stuff).
Idealy i hope to end up opening my own restaurant, which i know is a long way off, but one day shall *fingers crossed* become a reality.
I cook, i craft, i read, i write. I am kind of weird...
I am easily unnoticed, and somewhat invisible to those around me...
Tune in to my posts to find out what goes on in my boringly messed up world...
WELCOME TO MY WORLD!!!...
~ Krysten ~
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